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May 28, 2019
Tommy Caldwell's Trauma Changed his Life for the Better
He's been described as the greatest living athlete you've never heard of, but once you hear it you'll never be able to forget Tommy Caldwell's story. In the early 2000s, Tommy was just a young climber on a trip when he and his friends were taken hostage. Then a household accident threatened to end his career forever. Tommy talks about putting his life back together, post traumatic growth, and chasing big dreams. LINKS! You can catch Tommy in action in The Dawn Wall and Free Solo You can also visit Tommy's website for more from the man himself. To read more about his experience in Kyrgyzstan, read his book, The Push Support this show by supporting our sponsors! Robinhood - Robinhood is giving our listeners a FREE stock like Apple, Ford, or Sprint to help you build your portfolio. Sign up at isurvivor.robinhood.com Living Proof - Visit LivingProof.com/survivor and enter code "Survivor" at checkout for a free sample of their dry shampoo with purchase.
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43 min
May 21, 2019
Lockey Maisonneuve Refuses to Forgive her Abusers
Lockey Maisonneuve calls herself the "Girl Raised by Wolves." She had abusive, neglectful parents and hated when people told her she couldn't heal until she forgave her abusers. She found healing through yoga and was able to release her pain, and now she teaches others. You can get a copy of her memoir wherever books are sold. LINKS! Learn more about using yoga to heal trauma Lockey mentioned Rainn.org - it's a great resource for survivors. Learn more about Lockey and her book "A Girl Raised By Wolves" on her website Support this show by supporting our sponsors! Calm - Get unlimited access at Calm.com/SURVIVOR Don't forget to tune into The Hot Zone on National Geographic on May 27th.
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39 min
May 14, 2019
Darrell Jones on Freedom After 32 Years Behind Bars
In December 2017, Darrell "Diamond" Jones took his first breath as a free man in 32 years. In 1985, he was convicted of a crime he says he didn't commit. He could have pled guilty for a shorter sentence, but he refused to confess guilt for something he knows he didn't do. We talked to him about surviving a dangerous prison and committing his life to making sure other innocent men end up in jail like he did. LINKS! You wouldn't be hearing Darrell's story without reporting from WBUR and the New England Center for Investigative Reporting. Learn more about Not In My Name. Support this show by supporting our sponsors! Don't forget to tune into The Hot Zone on National Geographic on May 27th.
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33 min
May 7, 2019
The July Effect
Stacy Seltzer had just married her husband, Jason, when something happened that set off a chain reaction that upturned her entire life: She got pregnant. That led to misdiagnoses, chronic pain, and a month-long stay in the hospital in July 2012. Finally one thing gave her some relief: The July Effect. The jury's still out on whether it's a myth, but what Stacy went through is very, very real. LINKS! Decide for yourself: July Effect, fact or fiction? Be your own health advocate! Don't forget to tune into The Hot Zone on National Geographic on May 27th.
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40 min
April 30, 2019
Leaving Your Family to Save Yourself
Larry Ruhl was in his 20s when he started having flashbacks. Shadowy childhood memories re-emerged of his father, coming into his bedroom late at night. As he uncovered these painful thoughts he was also grappling with his sexuality. He’s here today to talk about the process of healing and how it’s something he works on every day. Larry was brave enough to step into the darkest parts of his life and find solace in sharing with other survivors. *Heads up - this episode mentions childhood sexual abuse and suicidal ideation.* LINKS! Learn more about Larry’s story and order a copy of his book, Breaking the Ruhl’s. Larry is also an incredible designer! Check out his website. You can support this show by supporting our sponsors! Calm - Get 25% off a Calm Premium subscription at Calm.com/survivor and take a deep breath. We're chillin - you can, too! Living Proof - Make the switch to LivingProof.com/Survivor and you'll get a free sample of their BOMB dry shampoo.
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33 min
April 23, 2019
The Unlikely Hero of "Dirty John"
It’s been three years since Terra Newell was attacked at her apartment complex by John Meehan, and two years since her family’s ordeal was blasted into public consciousness through the hit podcast turned hit TV show, Dirty John. When the podcast ended, Terra was still healing. We caught up with her about her PTSD, her recovery, and why she decided to go public with her story. This is, I, Survivor. LINKS! Haven't listened to Dirty John? (SERIOUSLY?!) Binge the series. Keep up with Terra online. Read her letter “To the Cast & Crew of The Walking Dead” Want the deets on EMDR? We spoke in more detail last season in our episode with Carol E. Miller, Life After The Plane Crash Support this show by supporting our sponsors! Robinhood - Go to isurvivor.robinhood.com and you'll get a free stock! Living Proof - Visit livingproof.com/survivor and use code "Survivor" and you'll get a free sample of dry shampoo!
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33 min
April 16, 2019
We're Back!
I, Survivor is back Tuesday, April 23rd! Hear new stories from Dirty John's Terra Newell, climber Tommy Caldwell (from the Free Solo documentary), and more. This season is all about finding empowerment through sharing these stories, and we can’t wait for you to join us.
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December 25, 2018
Merry Bloody Christmas
Tracy Rowland's mother figured her daughter's Christmas Break home from college was the perfect time to schedule surgery. She wouldn't miss any class and be able to lay around and recover. Of course, that's not exactly what ended up happening. Tracy is here to tell us about a Christmas memory her family still talks about. And! It's the end of Season 1! From all of us here at I, Survivor we want to thank you SO much for listening. We'll be back for Season 2 in April. Happy Holidays! Support this show by supporting our sponsors! Bombas - Go to bombas.com/survivorand enter survivor at checkout for 20% off. Lending Club -  Save some money atlendingclub.com/survivor
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29 min
December 18, 2018
Whiteout Conditions
David Crabb and his husband went to Newfoundland to spend Christmas with his mother in her new house. They landed in whiteout conditions, and the trip got worse from there. They escaped, and a few months later, so did his mother. Support us by supporting our sponsors! Living Proof - Go to livingproof.com/Survivor and use promo code "survivor" for a free sample of dry shampoo. Lending Club - Save some money at lendingclub.com/survivor Stamps - Shipping is easy, especially with a 4 week trial from Stamps.com. Just click the microphone and use promo code "Survivor"
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40 min
December 11, 2018
Football, Inc.
Chris Borland played professional football for the San Francisco 49ers and after a stellar rookie season left his pro career so he wouldn’t become a statistic! He’s since become an advocate for CTE and Traumatic Brain Injuries. Links from today’s episode! Chris on Face The Nation Chris on CBS This Morning See Chris Advocate! Support this show by supporting our sponsors! Brooklinen - Get $20 off and free shipping at Brooklinen.com, and use code SURVIVOR at checkout. Quip - Go to GetQuip.com/survivor to get your first refill pack free with your order of an electric toothbrush. ThirdLove - Go to 15% off by going to ThirdLove.com/Survivor
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44 min
December 4, 2018
It Still Floods
What happens to artists when they need to process? They create. Writer Paul Bianchi turned a childhood trauma into a performance piece and he came into the studio to share his story with us. Links from today’s episode! Paul’s podcast, Mythunderstood Art helps a lot of people process their trauma And may help you or someone you love! Support this show by supporting our sponsors! Bombas - Visit Bombas.com/Survivor and use code Survivor at checkout for 20% off your first order. Living Proof -  Go to livingproof.com/Survivor and use promo code "survivor" for a free sample of dry shampoo.
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41 min
November 27, 2018
Lacey Is Your Friend
Lacey Henderson survived a childhood cancer that had no survival rate, but losing a leg didn’t slow her down. Inspired by the classic film bring it on, she became a competitive cheerleader. Then, over a casual family game of beer pong her Dad bet her she could never pole vault as an amputee. Not only did she fly, she became an Olympian! Ok, so there was a lot of training and other hard stuff that happened in between but it kinda feels like she was born for this. Links from Today’s Episode! Find Lacey Online Watch Lacey’s Ted Talk Learn more about Athletes for Hope Support this show by supporting our sponsors! Brooklinen - Get $20 off and free shipping at Brooklinen.com, and use code SURVIVOR at checkout. Ancestry - Go to Ancestry.com/survivor and order your kit for just $59. Quip - Go to GetQuip.com/survivor to get your first refill pack free with your order of an electric toothbrush.
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47 min
November 20, 2018
Fly-Fight-Win
When Rachel was in the Air Force, she was assaulted by a fellow airman. While initially praised for her bravery, she was punished when she spoke out. But Rachel left the skies for the seas, and found healing on her boat, Coconut, where she now lives. Isn't it annoying that the Air Force refuses to call members anything other than "airman" even when they're air women? And to all those who have served our country, we salute you. Links from Today's Episode! Save A Warrior Rachel tried CBT, and loved it. It may be right for you. We spent a LOT of time Googling Tiny Houses and Boat Houses after this. Support this show by supporting our sponsors! Living Proof - Go to livingproof.com/Survivor and use promo code "survivor" for a free sample of dry shampoo. Ancestry - Get your kit for just $59 at Ancestry.com/Survivor Blinkist - Start your free 7-day trial of Blinkist at blinkist.com/survivor .
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48 min
November 13, 2018
Tested to the Limit
When Consolee Nishimwe was 14, the Rwandan Genocide ripped her country and family apart. She hid out in bushes, attics, and she survived. She shared her story with us and inspired the hell out of us. The Rwandan Genocide is a big and terrible topic that we couldn’t fully explore in this episode, so do ya homework and learn more about it to fully appreciate Consolee’s journey. Links from Today’s Episode! Read Consolee’s book! You can also follow her on Twitter for more. If you want more info about the Rwandan Genocide, visit Genocide Research Hub. Support this show by supporting our sponsors! ThirdLove - Go to 15% off by going to ThirdLove.com/Survivor Quip - Get your first refill pack for free by visiting GetQuip.com/survivor ZipRecruiter - Try ZipRecruiter.com/survivor and find your next great hire.
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38 min
November 6, 2018
My Husband The Sociopath
When Michele Simms was 23 she met the man she married. He was a sociopath and she couldn't escape. It took a stay in a really unlikely place for her to find the strength she needed to get out. Reminder that mental illness is not your fault, nor is it a reflection of your value. Asking for help or taking medication to manage your symptoms is not weakness and admitting you are not okay is not a failure. Links from today's episode: How to Spot a Sociopath Are you the target of a sociopath? Support this show by supporting our sponsors! Bombas - Visit Bombas.com/Survivor and use code Survivor at checkout for 20% off your first order. Brooklinen - Get $20 off and free shipping when you use the code Survivor at Brooklinen.com
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33 min
October 30, 2018
Not Today, Dogs
Cat Crow was on vacation in the Italian countryside when she was attacked by wild dogs. When she got to the hospital a new set of horrors was waiting for her. Links from the episode! Rabid or just plain dangerous? Know the difference. Wagatwe is sending out a weekly newsletter! Check it out. You are also supporting this show whenever you support our advertisers, like Ritual. Visit Ritual.com/Survivor to start your ritual today.
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33 min
October 23, 2018
Surviving Dr. Death
The Texas medical system failed to protect 33 patients from Dr. Christopher Duntsch. Philip Mayfield was one of the survivors. We spoke to Laura Beil, host and reporter of the podcast Dr. Death, about the story, Duntsch's victims, the survivors, and the institutional betrayal that occurred all across Texas Links from the episode! Listen to Dr. Death if you haven’t. The story is wild! Institutional Betrayal - Article by Dr. Jennifer Freyd And, you can support this show by supporting our sponsors. Go to GetQuip.com/Survivor to get your first Quip refill pack for free!
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25 min
October 16, 2018
How To Lose A Husband In 10 Weeks
We’ve never told Jenna’s story on our show, so here it is: she’s part of the First Wives Club and survived an abusive first marriage. Did you know that more than 10 million people each year are victims of intimate partner violence?  We’d also kindly like to remind people who ask survivors, “Why didn’t you [verb] sooner/earlier/fight back?” to eff right off. Links from today’s episode: CNN has your DV stats and a timeline of legislature related to DV in the US Jenna’s on Twitter if you’re into that! Wagatwe writes for the Daily Kos if you’re into that! You can support this show by supporting our sponsors! Like Daily Harvest! Check out those smoothies at daily-harvest.com and use promo code "SURVIVOR" at checkout!
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45 min
October 9, 2018
Covert Affairs
Paul Gilmartin, host of the podcast Mental Illness Happy Hour, survived covert incest. It’s especially insidious because there’s no physical contact, but the emotional damage is very real. Paul has dedicated his life to his recovery, and regularly talks about depression, addiction, anxiety, abuse and gender identity on his show. Jenna was also on his show! You should probably check it out. Links from today’s episode! Paul’s podcast is available wherever you listen to I, Survivor. Kenneth Adams coined the term “covert incest” and wrote a book about it. If you identify with any of the themes in today’s episode, there are 12 step programs like Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous and Adult Children of Alcoholics / Dysfunctional Families you can check out. For more reading you should also look up Facing Love Addiction by Pia Mellody and Healing the Shame that Binds You by John Bradshaw. You should also support the show by supporting our sponsors! The theme of the month is "Stay cozy, stay informed," and our sponsors can help with that. Go to Thirdlove.com/survivor for 15% off your first delish bra order, bombas.com/survivor and enter survivor at checkout for 20% off the socks that Wagatwe and Jenna are obsessed with, and go get you a free 7-day trial of Blinkist at blinkist.com/survivor .
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40 min
October 5, 2018
Bonus: Institutional Betrayal with Dr. Jennifer Freyd
This is a special episode all about Institutional Betrayal. We've mentioned it a lot, but haven't really gone into it in detail. We talked to Dr. Jennifer Freyd, a psychology professor at University of Oregon who coined the term.
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15 min
October 2, 2018
Life After Death
Norman Buckley is a director known for his work on Pretty Little Liars and Gossip Girl, but what you may not know is that he’s survived the untimely and tragic deaths of two of his partners.  He shares the story of them and how he found a way out of what could have been a hellacious grief spiral. Then we talk to grief expert David Kessler. It’s a heavy episode, friends, so hug your lovers tightly. Links for today’s episode! David made a free three-part series for anyone who has had a loved one die by suicide. You can check it out online. Read Norman’s poem about Davyd. If you need to talk, call the National Suicide Prevention line at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). Supporting our sponsors allows us to bring you this show for free! You can find your next great hire at ZipRecruiter.com/survivor.
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60 min
September 25, 2018
Behind Closed Doors
Myrla Baldonado is a caregiver who survived sexual assault working in five homes. She’s an activist and a badass who showed up for her interview wearing a Time’s Up pin. We also defined some key terms like gaslighting, so you can stay vigilant, and we talked to Bernice Yeung. She’s a ProPublica investigative reporter who covers sexual violence on the job. The stats are appaling. Time’s Up, motherf*ckers. Links from today’s episode: Time’s UP! If you want to learn more about workplace sexual violence, you can get a copy of her book: In a Day’s Work: The Fight to End Sexual Violence Against America’s Most Vulnerable Workers. Support us by supporting our sponsors! Hello Fresh is here to help you spice up your life! Go to HelloFresh.com/Survivor60 and enter Survivor60 at checkout for $60 off your order!
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35 min
September 18, 2018
Homeless in Los Angeles
Joey Weinert was just a kid, when his dad, The Manila Envelope Bandit, was arrested for a string of bank robberies throughout Southern California. That led to struggling with addiction. The Midnight Mission in Downtown Los Angeles helped him, and some women we talked to on Skid Row, turn their lives around. Over the last few years, the number of homeless women has increased 50%, and after seeing the everyday trauma firsthand we’re happy places like the Midnight Mission exist. Links from today’s Episode! Support the Midnight Mission! Give them your money or your time. Rina is a reporter for KPCC in Los Angeles. You can read more of her stories here. You can also support this show by supporting our sponsors! Get comfy with some Bombas socks! You can save 20% by visiting bombas.com/survivor and entering code SURVIVOR at checkout. Skin is skin, despite what your pink tax tells you. Keep your money and try Harry's for just $13 by visiting harrys.com/survivor.
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45 min
September 11, 2018
Trafficked, Recovered, Redeemed
When Jasmine Grace Marino was 18, her boyfriend forced her into the dark world of sex trafficking. Alicia Molina first started using drugs and alcohol when she was 13. She’s now 5 years sober. Sex trafficking and addiction are both stigmatized as individual failures, rather than reflections on our society. So here’s your weekly/daily/hourly reminder that they (and you, if you’re in similar situations) did not do anything wrong. These women were lucky to find ways out, and if you’re struggling we hope the same for you. If you know someone who you think may be a victim of human trafficking, you can call the National Human Trafficking Hotline at 1-888-373-7888. These are anonymous tips, but they are also very serious so don’t report if you don’t mean it. Links from the episode: The National Human Trafficking Hotline, online! You can read more about Jasmine Grace’s story online or in her book! Are you hiring? You should be using ZipRecruiter! It's the smartest way to hire. You can try it for free by going to ZipRecruiter.com/survivor
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46 min
September 4, 2018
Judgment Day
Mav Viola was attacked by someone she trusted - her youth pastor. She eventually realized he’d been grooming her (and other girls) for this abuse. Even WORSE, her church community didn’t believe her because apparently ‘someone who is a mostly ok dude that sometimes does terrible things to women’ is good enough! We’re throwing out some Hail Mary’s hoping churches get the hell away from this idea. Here’s a tip for people hiring anyone who works with children: if they’re a sex offender, DON’T HIRE THEM. Links from today’s episode! Mav is DOPE. You should definitely check out her website. Grooming is common for predators, but Oprah is here to teach you the signs. Bad dudes don’t get to “decide” when we’ve gotten over their behavior. (We’re looking at you, Louis C.K.) (Actually a lot of us are. Wagatwe is, Roxane Gay is, EVEN FOX NEWS IS.) DO YOU LOVE OUR SHOW? Show our sponsors some love! They let us bring you these episodes fo free! Ritual - Get a month of vitamins for just $30 by going to Ritual.com/survivor Daily Harvest - Get 3 cups for FREE (that's breakfast, lunch and dinner, people!) by visiting Daily-Harvest.com and using promo code SURVIVOR at checkout.
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43 min
August 28, 2018
All In The Family
Aishah Shahidah Simmons survived incest and sexual abuse. She is a self-described Black feminist lesbian documentary filmmaker. Then, we talk to writer Amanda Rosenberg, who survived a suicide attempt and says hiding her mental illness from her family almost killed her. We also describe both as badasses who took their trauma and created art from it. Family members telling you to hide your feelings because they say they don’t want to deal with you? Now that’s mental. Links from today’s episode! Aishah’s film, NO! The Rape Documentary, is available online or as a DVD. Learn more about #LoveWithAccountability You can also read more about Ashiah’s intersectional approaches to her activism. You can read Amanda’s Vox article and learn more about the “model minority” myth. You can also visit Amanda’s website for more. We're sponsored by Harry's and you could be, too! Get your set at Harrys.com/SURVIVOR
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49 min
August 21, 2018
Doin' It For Themselves
When you've experienced trauma it can seem almost impossible to put your life back together. Today on the show we have two women who not only did that, but who have dedicated their lives to helping people who have faced similarly traumatic events. Patricia Wenskunas was attacked in her home by someone she knew; Elena Christopolous was gang raped at a college party by her peers, but both women reclaimed their lives and are helping other women do the same. Here's to all the sisters doin' it for themselves! We owe you a drink. Links from today's episode: Patricia started Crime Survivors to give back. Visit Crime Survivors online for resources or to help out. Elena is on the Santa Monica Commission on the Status of Women. You can learn more about it on their website. You can support this show by supporting our sponsors! ZipRecruiter - Get started for free by visiting ZipRecruiter.com/SURVIVOR Hello Fresh - Get $60 off your order by visiting HelloFresh.com/SURVIVOR60 and enter promo code SURVIVOR60.
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36 min
August 14, 2018
Are You There God? It's Me, Johnno.
Johnno Wilson was spending a serene morning on Venice Beach, when a quick dip in the Pacific Ocean turned into a ride in a rip current and a brush with death. Since we’re now officially terrified of the ocean, we invited lifeguard Captain Remy Smith in to school us on water safety. Inflatables are NOT allowed on some beaches, so check the rules in your state and know that if you bring water wings to the beach: we’re watching you. Links from today’s episode: Heeeere’s Johnno! Learn more about Rip Currents Here’s how you read a tide board. You're supporting this show whenever you support our sponsors, like Daily Harvest! Get 3 cups for FREE (that's breakfast, lunch and dinner, people!) by visiting Daily-Harvest.com and using promo code SURVIVOR at checkout.
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38 min
August 7, 2018
A Letter to my Terrorist
Rachel Pharn was riding her bike along the Hudson River when a terrorist drove a truck into the bike path. She survived, and reads us the letter that she wrote to the man who attacked her. Then, we hear from Dr. Laurie Punch. Dr. Punch is a trauma surgeon who moved to Missouri and trains residents to be first responders to gun violence. Forget what The Fray taught you, this is how to save a life. Links from today’s episode: Read more about Rachel in the New York Times Watch Rachel perform A Letter to my Terrorist Learn more about the Stop The Bleed campaign Find a Bleeding Control class near you
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34 min
July 31, 2018
Not Today, Motherf*cker
Kelly Herron was attacked in a Seattle bathroom while she was out running one afternoon. But Kelly fought back. She shares her story, and we get a primer in self defense from Jenna’s neighbor, Jose Angel Castro, who just so happens to be the founder of NowHouse Education Group. Pro-tip: Get hard bones into soft places. No one’s gonna square off and tell you to put up your dukes like you see in the movies. Links from today’s episode: Not Today - Kelly’s Slam Piece NowHouse Education Group Follow Jose on social media!
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47 min
July 31, 2018
Life After the Plane Crash
Carol E. Miller survived a plane crash when she was just 16 years old. But Carol didn’t feel whole until years later, after discovering EMDR therapy. We learn more about EMDR from a psychotherapist and frequent guest on Marc Maron’s WTF podcast, Dr. Steve Dansiger. Plus, we discuss safety tips from Cosmo. Really? We can’t go to a park or outside at night or on a walk alone or use our cellphones or talk to anyone again? Ever? Links from today’s episode: More information about EMDR therapy Cosmo’s Safety Tips Dr. Steve’s Website Carol E. Miller's Website Support us by supporting our sponsors! Casper - Get $50 off your mattress by visiting Casper.com/SURVIVOR and using code SURVIVOR at checkout.
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40 min
July 31, 2018
Swimming It Out
A single traumatic event can change life in the blink of an eye. It can destroy you, enrage you, and even fuel the fire within you. Nancy Hogshead-Makar was raped in college but she didn’t allow that to take over her life. Instead, Nancy channeled her fury into Olympic gold. This is I, Survivor. Links from today’s episode: RAINN - 24/7 Anonymous Sexual Assault Hotline Champion Women - Advocacy for Women and Girls in Sport Follow Nancy Hogshead-Makar on Twitter Institutional Betrayal - Article by Dr. Jennifer Freyd Follow I, Survivor on Instagram, and join our Facebook group! You can follow Jenna and Wagatwe on Twitter, too. Support us by supporting our sponsors! ZipRecruiter - Try it for FREE by going to ZipRecruiter.com/SURVIVOR
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45 min
July 17, 2018
Introducing I, Survivor
The assault, the manipulation, the fear, the triumph. I, Survivor premieres on July 31. Subscribe on Apple Podcasts, or wherever you listen.
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